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Jin Ling ⬤ Mo Dao Zu Shi
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From:

noenvy

A-Ling, are you doing well?

[He doesn't know how to have this conversation, it terrifies him, but not trying... not trying would be a greater terror.]

From:

proudpeony

Yeah. I'm fine

[No matter how many times his emotions end up overflowing over his walls, how can he just so easily admit to them?]

From:

noenvy

[He really wasn't good at this.]

Are you with anyone?

From:

proudpeony

No

[He's barely holding it together as it is. If his father's reaction is anything like his, he would lose his composure even more. So he's wandering in the city once more.]

From:

noenvy

Fairy is with you though, right?

[He's worried, but, he also has faith in Jin Ling.]

~~And...~~

[He doesn't know how to ask what he wants to. Will he stay with his father? Will they be okay? Does he have a right to pry and ask? He wants to help so much but he doesn't even know where to start.]

From:

proudpeony

Yes

[Though Jin Ling isn't paying much attention to anything as he walks, he can tell that Fairy is following behind him to make sure he's safe.

The lights and sounds of the city don't dull his feelings, but... in the storm of emotions, he thinks about how happy Wei Wuxian had been at the wedding and how much his mother had adored him. He wondered just how his shishu was dealing with this, especially after looking into his memories--]

Why? Where are you, anyway?

From:

noenvy

I can't be worried about my shizhi?

[And that almost all of their family vanished in a night.]

I'm home.

From:

proudpeony

I don't need worrying over. I got to live with them.

You said that we should just enjoy what we have and that's what I did when they were here.

From:

noenvy

That's true. I also enjoyed my time that was given.

[But, that wasn't entirely what he had meant.]

Jiang Cheng is gone as well though....

[But he still can't quite figure out how to say what he wanted to.]

It's alright to talk to me if you need anything.

From:

lanofsizhui

[With Ouyang Zizhen, Jiang Cheng, and Jiang Yanli returned home, Sizhui makes it his duty to account for the remaining juniors and their well-being. To reach out a hand, making himself available if it's needed]

Jin Ling, this is Sizhui.

[Well, not the one from his version of the world, but he's holding him in his thoughts]

I just want to be sure if you're all right. I'm here.

From:

proudpeony

Why wouldn't I be all right? It's more than I had at home.

[Of course, even if he rationalizes it this way, he can't just turn off his feelings.]

But thanks.

From:

lanofsizhui

All right. But remember you're not alone.

If you need a company, a friend, anything...I can come over. I want to help you.

From:

proudpeony

I don't want anyone

[And he gives in to a cynical (and probably overdramatic, he knows) urge to add:]

I don't know who'll be the next to disappear, anyway.

From:

lanofsizhui

[Sizhui will respect his wishes, but he doesn't want to give up on him]

All right. Remember, you are not alone. You have me by your side. I'm your friend.

[The message is to serve as a reminder]

Nobody can know or predict when. It can be today or tomorrow. Nobody knows. That's why in this world, it's important that we have each other. That's why I wanted to help you.